Twilight.

For those of you who dont know what Twilight is

well let me inform you,

its epic.

ha..something im pretty sure every woman

and little girl is obsessed with.

and to be honesty i am also one of those

obsessed women.

i dont care how much people say its stupid.

and these are the reasons why,

yes the movies may be a bit cheesy lets face it.

but what girl doesnt want two very fine men fighting over them.

come on now.

and every girl would die to be treated that way.

so men take a lesson from these movies ha.

not so much the cheese ball parts but everything else.

now i am team EDWARD ha i mean look at him!!

(sarah this photo is for you ha)

and for me its not the whole edward cullen thing

it the Robert Pattinson thing.

he has some other really amazing films

like" remember me"

AMAZING

and he is so mysiterious and scruffy and manly ha.

when jacob yes is also, whats the word that most people

would you use.

sexy. ha.

but kinda little boy.

at least for me anyway.maybe not so much when he takes his shirt off ha.so what im trying to say is GO TEAM EDWARD...and well ive joined the rest of the world in falling in love with these stupid books and movies. and i cant wait for breaking dawn. a year and half people. urg.

well.

tonight,

well tonight,

i miss you.

an empty feeling.

but their never goodbye's just see you later's bug.

the Brittany moments didnt work in my last post so here are her best moments!! ha sorry everyone!

Glee Glee and more GLEE

ive found my new obsession GLEE.

i catch myself watching the 6 episodes i have saved on my DVR.

over and over again.

(i know im pathetic)

and not like everyone i dont love finn

im a little bit in love with Noah or Mark salling
aka the bad boy of glee.

i mean seriously the prettiest boy ive ever seen ha.

now, ive asked for my birthday for all the soundtracks so i dont have to keep watching the tv and fastforwarding to the songs ha

and for my favorite girl of the whole show , well Quinn of course i think its cause i can kinda relate to her(besides the being able to sing and dance)im sure you all understand ha.

the last eposide of this season where she has her baby even with the weird back ground music, ha made me cry.but i guess any stuff about babies makes me cry.but that she placed her in rachel's moms care (sorry i dont believe in the word give up) but i cant wait to see what happens in the up coming season with that. =))

but also i have to say i really love Brittany (the dumb blonde cheerleader)her comments always give me a good laugh.like "did you know dolphins are just gay sharks" here are some of the best of her quotes!

so pretty much what im trying to say ive become a GLEE fan just like everyone else =)

Rambling

so their has been so much on my chest latley so i think now is a good time to just get it off.
one big event happened last week.
my dad got married.
which dont get me wrong i was totally thrilled about and couldnt be happier for my dad.
but i couldnt help but think, as i sat on the side watching my dad make vows with
another woman ( who i love) that this isnt the was its supposed to be.
i shouldnt be 18 and seeing my dad getting married he should be walking me and my
sisters down the aisle.
ive gone 18 years knowing only one mother and one father.
and now.....
their will always be two mothers and one day two father.
i hate to say it, and i hope i dont offened anyone when i say..i never wanted to say that.
even though i love my new step mom, and my two new siblings. i do.
but it isnt "home" you would think i would be used to it by now.
but im not and i pray and hope one day this wont feel this way.
and i can say these are my families, and this is my "home"

speaking of "home" i moved out of my house that i had lived in for 14 years, well it will be a year in september. and ive lived in this home with my mom.
but this isnt home.
this is just a place i sleep.
when my mom isnt here, its dole and lonely.
but when she is here i get a little taste of home.
something i may never fully feel again.
but when i get that glimpse of it occasionly, those are the days
i say to myself "it really is gonna be okay"

okay so i dont want everyone thinking im depressed and sad all the time.
cause im not.
im actually the happiest i have been in a very long time.
yes i have my days where i feel i cant go on one more day, and all i want
is to hold my son, and know im not alone in this..which those days are happening more
often then id like but i know its just cause i need to feel, if i ever want to heal fully.
but than i have those days where im just happy, doing nothing special then the
day before, those days make up for the sad days. and give hope.
i know alot of the reason i have happier days is because, i am back in the church thing
if you can say it that way.
tomorrow in sacrament i can take the bread and water for the first time in 3 years.
and i have never felt more relieved in my life.
i dont go a night with out praying and im reading the book of mormon for the first time.
its insane how the littlest things like those can change you, make you a happier person.
give a feeling of hope =)
after all this.
it can only get better.

Post Secrets.

so one of my favorite things to do is go to borders and

read all the post secret books.

i feel like i can relate to the secrets something,

and other times im totally lost.

but here are some that relate to me and some that

i just really like.